#SkinSin

Good mornin’ beautiful,

My daily affirmation! However, I must admit I don’t think I have ever believed it. Beautiful, defined as:Pleasing the senses or mind aesthetically….

At 6.30am with morning breath, acne and the subsequent realisation of WORK fear?

NO!

Good mornin’ apprehensive, spotty, bloated stress head.

now we are talking!

for years like many, I have tried to fake beauty. I have sinned multiple times in the quest to FEEL beautiful and to BE perceived as beautiful.

There are many reasons why,possibly too many to mention.
The main being my lifestyle,
In a previous life I was a dancer and glamour model.
It was a must to be tanned, have white straight teeth, pert posterior/boobs and flawless wrinkle free skin and plump lips!
From the age of 22 I regularly used Botox and fillers, sun beds, hydrogen peroxide to bleach my teeth, I chained myself to the gym, relied on tequila when working late to give me energy. Experimented with a wealth of diets/potions to keep myself ‘looking good’. I have had miles of virgin Russian hair weaved to my head. I bought designer to feel designer. I was a slave to socialising in London and all over Europe.

Did I ever feel beautiful? Yes!
But it wasn’t real beauty and the feeling never lasted long.
My life revolved around other people’s perception of me.
Men’s perception mainly.

Constant comparisons to others, hours in make up to always be photoshopped!

Sorry to burst the ‘glamour’ bubble, but there really was nothing Raw or real or beautiful about being TOLD how to be beautiful.

It’s a huge weight to carry and after realising I was living a life based on the false I decided to pursue a new life and career based on the real.

I studied mental health nursing at university and graduated in 2015.

Mental health has always been a passion. My grandfather suffered with paranoid schizophrenia for years and I witnessed the cruelness of mental illness as a young child. I wanted to give something back and I feel blessed that I get to do so every day.

Nursing is not a particularly healthy career and many nurses face health problems in later life. Previously the pressure had been on me aesthetically but now the pressure was on me mentally. Heavy work load and the sheer responsibility of people placing their lives in your hands.

I neglected my nutrition, I neglected my bladder( squeeze through that ward round/medicine round), I neglected my sleep, my friends, my own mental state. It is fair to say a camel drinks more water than a nurse.

I love my job!

However, the job doesn’t love me!

I still didn’t feel beautiful!

This is when I started to look at ‘beauty’ as a lifestyle and not a perception.

Thus my new life ensued!

I left the concrete jungle that is the midlands and moved as far south as possible, to be by the sea.

Hiya Brighton!

The sea?

Why the sea?

Brainy scientists have found that those of us that live by the sea are calmer, fitter, spend longer periods out doors, happier than those inland and of course there is an abundance of fresh seafood. Winner.

This was step one to a beautiful lifestyle.

So Brighton, well, Hove, actually…

Since living by the sea I have noticed that my hair is thicker, longer and stronger than ever before. My nails are too! My skin which has always been acne prone has cleared.

To say that I am amazed would be an understatement.

Years and thousands of pounds on products and fresh air and the sea is all it takes to be beautiful?

Hold up!

How do I bottle Brighton and sell it to Everyone,everywhere?

Sadly I can’t.

I can only recommend you come and visit and experience the cosmopolitan beauty of Brighton for yourself. There really is no where like it!

I am writing this blog as a personal journey to a beautiful lifestyle, I want to share my experiences to make others feel beautiful.

Since relocating my lifestyle has changed dramatically.
I have learnt a lot about myself as a person.

I want to share with you the secrets to RAW beauty without Botox and products!

What works for me won’t necessarily work for others, however I, like most of the Internet am sick of seeing bloggers and vloggers who look identical, reviewing the same products talking about the same beauty ‘tricks’.

Beauty is a lifestyle and not just a good contour and blush.

The only thing BAE about me is my love of ‘Bacon And Eggs’.